I can't see myself as I see others

I always wonder whether any medium in this world can show how I really look.Does the mirror shows my real image? Is the film able to capture my essence as it is captured by people seeing me daily? Or will I be able to see myself as I see others through my own eyes?

Give me,
Someone else's eyes
for few moments
to see 'myself'
through those eyes.


Give me,
Someone else's eyes
To look deep in my own eyes
To know a bit better
Who am I?
What kind of human being?
Trustworthy?traitor?
To know the truth
At its very best
Which no one else can do
As I can do it for myself.

To know my self better
To know how I really look
Very deeply
Which no one else can do
As I can do it for myself.

I want those eyes
Always with me
To guide me
To tell me the Truth.

The two disguised

So placement week is over.But the hangover is still there.You can hear people talking about infy's bus( with bench) and delloittes van (female coach) ,the dummies and the genuine's , profiles and packages and what not . The week proved to be a testing time for many.For many it was just fifteen minute- day one drama .
For me it was a matter of four days( just!!).Day 1 didn't get shortlisted any where...day 2 got to sit in one written test....day 3( do i need to mention previous days result) ...cleared written..( obviously of a different company)....day 4 ...got placed!!!
So I enjoyed rest of the festival by participating as dummy candidate and pepping up the day 5vers,6ers and 7ers.
Seemed like the perception of recruiters didn't match with the general perception of batch about its stars. The confident guy missed 8 ,no content guy got 8,'who are you..are you in the same class ..MBA 2? sure?' turned out to be a millionaire,'i am with future's first satisfied with 4lks'got in the infy bus day1,'Only HR' found a stint in marketing and so on.
All the stress handling technique -innate or learned were put to use.Consider, the dumb guy( your perception) coaching you on interview technique, opening your eyes for what all mistakes you did, and sharing what techniques he applied and got successful by getting placed on day before....stress management. Other day 1ers and 2ers had tough time convincing themselves about what their classmates lacked....'you know ,the guy with work-ex is arrogant'...'no no ..i feel he is not aggressive...not fit for sales job'
But again, only few lucky one got chance to appear in this adversity test(the ones who stayed till day 6,7 ) and prove their mettle.The simulation provided a good way to test their adversity quotient.Day 1ers really missed that...
So,this cloud also had a silver lining ....


Guided by a flash
In a stormy night
when others kept their
ears and eyes shut tight

I saw my way
In that traumatic plight
which many thought
was to save from their sight

As light and fright will always reside
but often a clue for the better side
for you have to choose between two disguised
late cracking thunder or first thrown light......